Growing Pains

Assalamualaikum,
It has been two years. Oh how time flies. Without blogging, it seems that my mind is in a constant disarray. Many thoughts flowing in and out all the time. Without proper organisation, I feel lost. Enough about what the lack of blogging has done to me.

Many things have changed.

Life in JC was not what I thought it was. For the most of my second year, I fell, hard. Emotionally and mentally unstable. The grass is indeed greener on the other side. I did not do too well. I consistently failed many tests. It became such a norm that getting a pass deserved a reward of some sort. Often I try to preserve my thoughts in words, so I could see the kind of person I was long ago.

This year, I turn 20.

The reason I haven't been blogging, is because I've been keeping a personal sketchbook where I express myself and thoughts. I write of significant events and other emotional happenings. Truthfully, I had a depression in my second year in JC. Everything seemed bleak and gloomy. I was highly pessimistic on my outlook of life. For some reason, I felt that JC was a lost cause.

But I went for the marathon anyways. I tried my best to consolidate my thoughts. The knowledge I've received over the past 2 years were not gone, simply hidden. Hidden from my conscious thoughts. A few months before my A levels, I did my best. The best a lazy, inconsistent, fidgety person could. I never liked studying, and probably never will. My thirst for knowledge was lacking. I just felt that the knowledge I was looking for, would not be available to me from JC.

I made new friends, as well as old friends, lost from my past. A person who always made me feel better, and have a positive outlook on my life.

The few weeks up to A levels was indeed a journey. I hope I gave my best. But all is not lost.

I have considered my choices post-JC. Right now I'm waiting for my National Service, by teaching part-time in Irsyad.

It seems though, that ever since A levels ended, things changed for the better. My parents seems to be less angry to me. I've always tried my best to be a filial son. To be an obedient son. I'm tired of being a disappointment. Always needing to compete with my siblings. Well, it's time they realise that I am a different person. It's time I grew up.

And as always,
Salam and Peace be upon you.

KONY 2012

Is a scam. As usual, where there's oil, there are American troops.

Here's an article you should check out.

KONY 2012: Causing more harm than good

I quote the first 3 paragraphs:

Dear Jason Russell,

After being bombarded with your KONY 2012 crusade, I have no choice but to respond to your highly inaccurate, offensive, and harmful propaganda.  I realized I had to respond in hopes of stopping you before you cause more violence and deaths to the Acholi people (Northern Ugandans), the very people you are claiming to protect.

Firstly, I would like to question your timing of this KONY 2012 crusade in Uganda when most of the violence from Joseph Kony and the LRA (The Lord’s Resistance Army) has subsided in Uganda in the past 5 years. The LRA has moved onto neighboring countries like the Democratic Republic of Congo, Central Africa Republic,and Southern Sudan. Why are you not urging action in the countries he is currently in? Why are you worried about Kony all of a sudden when Ugandans are not at this present moment?

This grossly illogical timing and statements on your website such as “Click here to buy your KONY 2012 products” makes me believe that the timing has more to do with your commercial interests than humanitarian interests. With the upcoming U.S. presidential elections and the waning interest in Invisible Children, it seems to be perfect timing to start a crusade. I also must add at this point how much it personally disgusts me the way in which you have commercialized a conflict in which thousands of people have died. ...(read more)

A clean slate

My new school. Nanyang Junior College. Time to begin the mad rush. Like in Secondary 3 and 4.

Results

12 for L1R5.

4 Bonus points if I choose to go to JC.

Aggregate after bonus points: 8

JC of my choice: AJC.

Enough said.

New Year

Assalamualaikum,

It's a new year..! The year of 2012. The year when things change, insyaAllah! I will be getting my 'O' level results on 9 January 2012. I'm as nervous as can be. I hope I do well enough to have a wide variety of choices. Because, right now, I am extremely unsure of where to go. (Ok, NOW it's really new year, and there's a load of noise and screaming of "Happy New Year" greetings.. Awesome neighbourhood). Back to O levels,

I don't know where to go after this Should I follow my interests in IT, programming and games, and join a Poly, or do I risk an A level to get a much better chance of going to University. After all, the ultimate goal is to get a degree because, without a degree, you can't survive in Singapore. So, what do I do now? If I join a Poly, I have to spendthree years instead of two, which is no big deal to me. I mean, I spent an extra year in Secondary school like it's nothing, so why not spend another year in tertiary?

O levels are over!

Assalamualaikum!

At least it was over for the past 3 days. I took my last paper (Chemistry Paper 1) on Monday 14/11/11 Kinda exciting at first, but it got boring quickly. REALLY quickly. I'm bored out of my mind right now. I have no idea what to do. There seemed to be so many things I could do when I was looking forward to the end of my O levels, but now... =_=

Ok that's it.

Salam. peace!

Graduation

And so we graduated.

"Time flies like an arrow, fruit flies like a banana..."

I had a great time last night for our graduation. Hanging out with future lawyers, engineers, doctors, billionaires. It was a memorable dinner event, followed by an informal movie outing til midnight.

2 more weeks. To my O levels. This is what matters now. Good luck to everyone.

Salam. Peace.