Holidays? Not so much.

Assalamualaikum,
It's 31 May 2011, Tuesday, today. This post is written at 10:38PM, I probably just made it the third post for May, one short for my "one post per week" goal. Too bad. I've been busy, as usual. It's the norm to be 'busy' nowadays. Perhaps part of society, to be 'busy'. I finished my prelim papers last Tuesday, so it has been exactly one week since I ended my exams. This week is technically a holiday, but I have school for the entire week; as per normal. Well, these are just some simple sacrifices need to be made.

Important things. I received my papers today! But it's all unstable and subject to change and complex calculations, so I will not dwell too much on that and just wait for the final reports. With the marks and all. Didn't do too shabby for a Prelim paper, in Victoria School, the school with super high expectations and standards. Not to pick on it but I don't think this amount of stress on a student is humane. I pretty much burnt out in the middle of the third week of my exams. I tried my best to study and revise, but the drive just wasn't there. Everything went against my plans during the first two weeks of exams. Renovations and stuff just bothering me. You might accuse me of being too sensitive, well it's true, I'm too sensitive. I'm sensitive to dust, noise and change. Change is needed in life, and I have reactions to it. Well, my point is that I don't mind doing such tough papers from VS, I mean, I asked for it. I really want to do well for my O levels.

I recently read that expressing your life goals to others will make you LESS likely to achieve it. Based on the evidence brought forward, I'm partially bought. Well, in case you haven't realised, I never really blogged about my real goals in life. Nor have I told anyone, except Abdullah, even then, he doesn't know it's my goals, (I think). I only give subtle clues to what I want to do in life. From this post, you know that my goals require good O levels. You can also tell from my concerns that I've expressed in the past about societal, political and educational issues. Alone I may not combat these problems, but I do hope to achieve something in my life. Enough said.

Back to reality, I guess my holidays are gone. The next three weeks will mostly be dedicated to completing my Art Coursework. Not everyday of course, whenever I deem fit I guess. Art is all about the mood. You cannot force someone to sit in a room and make 'art'. Maybe one day it's possible. Abdullah has agreed to act for my video. But I promised myself that I will dedicate MORE time for my revisions. Perhaps do some of the past year prelim papers that I neglected to do. I always assumed doing O levels papers were enough. Well, O level papers are enough for O levels, not for the extremely difficult prelims.

The constantly changing subjects in this post mirrors my state of mind. I type, where my mind wanders. Now, I'm going everywhere. I'm thinking about everything. The day I stop thinking, is the day I die, as a person, a human.

Some rough information about my prelim papers: I did 'above average' for English. You do not want to know what the average is. I was short of one mark for most of my paper to achieve a higher grade, meaning they were all 'high B4s, B3s, A2s' etc. I don't know if you understand. That is all I guess.

Salam...Peace!

A sidenote:
Who is this 'you' I'm speaking to?
I've always imagined 'you' to be the future generation. I do not intend people to read this now. If you do then, fine. It's great. My treasures, adventures and misadventures.I wish to leave some form of knowledge, life lesson for those in the future. It may not be relevant to your time (seeing as times change quickly nowadays), but it may provide insight into the mind and life of a person from the beginning of the 21st century. A brief documentation of my life, in text. (There used to be pictures, but I don't upload those anymore.)

I've been getting ideas about maybe publishing my blog in a book? Hmm? Whadya think of that?